I wonder...

I wonder who's reading my blog from singapore??

I miss....

My heart's so heavy...

My body won't move...

My mind can't forget...

Even though it's just a day...

How could this happen?

Why of all the time now?

The feelings are really suffocating...

Yet I'm still alive.

How I wish the earth would swallow me...

How I wish the sky would fall...

How I wish I could cease to exist...

Just to keep from this ache...

Made a Cake

Though it wasn't my intention to buy the wrong cream.. what's done is done..

Cake... quite yummy.. 

Girls

The bad-side to being the only male in the class... argh!
1. cannot be too friendly with girls, cause they'll think you're into them??
2. it's feels kinda like a lone-island...
3. makes me wish i could join the diploma gang.
4. no sense of belonging? though .....
5. there's no guy to take my side...
6. getting the most attention in class... ( though there's quite an equal good-side to it too)
7. i still don't understand how girls can talk so much..
8. and... well.. there's alot more.. but the rest are too personal.. haha...

don't bother..
this is just some nonsensical rant..?? what's that word over there<

BOOKS!

NEVER IN MY LIFE HAVE I BOUGHT SO MUCH BOOKS' WORTH...

29 Anatomy and Physiology by Tortora,
12 Medical, Surgical Nursing.
4 Fundamental nursing.

RM90, RM150, RM128...
altogether??? RM5k+... madness....

but still.. the books are way cheaper  compared to the ones in school..
the 1st one.. school is selling it at RM126.35.. madness right?? look at the difference..
second one...? not available in school...
the 3rd one.. not using.. so dunno..

The thickness of the 1st one like almost similar to the length of my phone when it's closed... meaning.. the left one...
the thickness of the 2nd one is similar  to my phones' top down to the bottom of the screen...
It's that thick.. ahh....

haha.. but it was fun... haha..

where can u find medical books with reasonable price??
here ~

Kamal Medical Book Supplies sdn bhd

134, Jalan Pahang, Next to Hotel Grand Season. Opp GH-HKL main Entrance Ground Floor, Kuala Lumpur 53000, Kuala Lumpur

p: +6(03)-40210575  f: +6(03)-40214612

I'm not very sure what's their opening hours, it seem that everytime i go it's open for business... haha

Lately

Lately,
I've been feeling lousy...
I feel lost...?
I feel nice...
I feel interesting...
then I feel tired...
I feel queer...
But overall... I feel that I'm finally doing something worthwhile...

I kinda like uni... well.. at least NUC... it's not too bad...
It's not like I can compared it with any other uni coz i've not been to any... and this is the first...
It did quite well in giving me quite a good first impression.

I miss those who've I've been studying in the past...
Those i've talked too...
Those i've been thinking bout...

I think it's important to not forget them...
but.. How can I get-about with them in the present and keep those in the past in mind at the same time?
I don't wanna loose anyone,

I think in life... that's the only thing I fear most...

What's burning compared to that?
What's a bruise compared to that?
What's death compared to that?
The sense of loss...

But then.. there certainly are some I'm willing to let go without second thought...

emo-ing mr.eugene....
well.. at least i manage to finish my so called assignment... haha.. self-made format is nice...
*** i didn't know there were so many unexpected readers.
Thanks!!!

Life As a Uni Student

Really... I never knew it would be this hard to describe.
Just had the Junior's night, a night for the closing ceremony of the week-old orientation..
It was good that the Orientation here OH! I'm studying in Nilai University College.
continue~ didn't last for a month like some places...
Good thing also that the Student Affair department is very strict towards ragging - i hate ragging... it makes my blood boils to know that this sort of practice is encourage at places...
But... There's always a 'but'
1 whole week? orientation? ain't it a waste of time??? I mean there's so much to study, with so little time.. on top of that.. driving to college ain't no easy for me...

but.. (another one)
i did enjoy myself..
some picture to light up this gloomy turn sunshine blog..?

     Dark ~ that's Rachel (I can't remember her real Korean name)

        That's Baek Hye Ji, my degree senior

    The Guys; Me, Sze You, Wesler, Roland, and that 1 I can't remember

    How did this get here? Sze You & Yi Wen

    Yi wen & Wesler

                                          Psycho

 When it's bright enough with the Night's King

    And that malay pschopath

It's back to studying.. O.O