Better than I Deserve.

Have u gone through times where u could have died of hunger?

have you experienced near deaths?

Have you known what would've happened?

>Yes?

>>No?

>>>Probably Not...

How do you usually answer when people ask the very common question?

"How are you?", "how do you do?", "how are you doing?"

"I'm good!", "Fine!", "Good Good!"

No thoughts of what you did a few moments ago...?

No thoughts of what what happened the other day...?

No thoughts on why you could enjoy what you have today...?

~*~

Well think....

What we have today is all because of God's grace, mercy, kindness, and significantly, Love.

.

We live in a sinful world.

Yet, when ask "How are you?", many can still answer that they are good...

Don't you think it's better then you deserve? 

We Sin. With sin, live CANNOT be peacefull, live cannot continue. 

Fights, War, Chaos!

Those who answered that your good? 

Don't you think it's better than what you deserve?

God's punishment, His wrath, His anger.

He is the Judge, the King of kings, Lord of lords. 

I really think "How Am I?" now is really better than what i deserve...

** This is just a rough idea of whats in my mind... heard about it in church. but i can't seem to recall the other parts.. it's something like Psalms 3. 

anyway.. Something to for you to ponder upon...

> have a nice day! 

PS : How are you?

AHHHHHHHH

The worst!!!! has yet to come...!!! how!! am! I GONNA DIE!!!???

crap... 

exams' not over yet... haiz....

okok.. gambateh!!!

haha..  wuliao..!! being that now..

You & I

Why am I still your friend?

When you have upset me so much,

ever so often.

Purposely or unintentionally.

~*~

I don't know.

I really love you,

yet I hate you at the same time.

I realised that I was never once joyous with you.

Yet I was at peace,

but it's getting depressing, internally.

~*~

I feel the rage coming.

I wanna trash around!

I wanna break something!

I wanna break your Damned neck!

Skewer you! Stab YOU! MURDER YOU!

~*~

You make me sick, so very depressed.

Make me weary, I can't hold myself together, almost.

Make me want, want you, so ever much more.

~*~

How can you be so mean?

So cruel! So evil! So amusing?

~*~

Downed, angryly,

I wanna shout & scream at you!

Fuck you! I Hate You! Go To HELL!

I . Love . You . . . ?

~*~

I DON'T KNOW WHAT'S GOING ON!

What my feelings are for you.

Why did I have to meet you?

Why did I have to know you?

Why? WHy? WHY!?!

~*~

Please do tell me . . . 

I beg you . . . 

My Dear Friend...

**Disclaimer: This blogpost is the author's personal opinion of matters, and does not represent the opinion of any group, association, company, etc.
 This blogpost also is not targeted at anybody in particular, but just a vent for the author's emotions. However, if you think it applies to you, the author gives his sincerest apologies and prays you'd change before you hurt anybody else.

woohoo!

lol.. 

first of all.. HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!

haha..

What did I do?

I went out with the "gang"! haha

Ganesh, Kok Hoong, Lin Shan, Sue Yi(is it spelled correctly?), Caleb and Edmund.

cool gang... haha

we had Carlz Jr. lol! super huge burgers... bloated! argh!

then.. we watch Seraphine... haha.. a French movie..

tragic.. really tragic.. not only in the movie.. 

we had to go through the agony of watching it.. well.. not too bad la..

after that was lepaking for no apparent reason.. felt like vomitting.. too heavy a drink we had.. too much cream i guess...

and.. then.. ganesh and i got a lift from lin shan's parents.. haha... thanks! uncle and auntie...

hmm... i guess that's all.. 

thanks everyone.. for the wishes, the prayers, the heart.... 

i wish u the same too... cept for the happy birthday part la.. 

ah.... long weekend... NOT!

I was away... 

to somewhere quite nice..

to YAF.

Young Adult Fellowship.

well.. it's hmm.. a combined thing.. all youths after SPM from our church's club. haha

well..  the theme was! BGR... >.<

I'm exhausted. but well.... it was worth it.. for me at least... i got to see so many old friends... ^^

I didn't took much photoes.. with my camera... used Aaron's. His one's a nice one... i envy... 

anyway.. it was fun.. using his camera... taking anything at random.. haha..

uploaded it on facebook....

*will upload it here on the next post...

got to go for now.. CIAO!