Life...

I would gladly give up living...
If!... i could have it my way....
but life's not about me....
so that's that...

i have to continue living.... on borrowed time.. to the very best...
i dream.. but then.. it'll be all but a dream...
i hope... also... it'll be all nothing but a hope..

so.. my life is practically not mine...
i just wanna bide my time... take everything slowly and comfortably...
i see life moving like a walking tortoise.... every pace and step so carefull and stable...
but sometimes.. it could really fly... no joke..

i can't really crap much... i'm tired....
my stamina's not return after the sickness.. i have to gain it back... slowly but surely..
i do wish i would sleep and never wake up... that would be nice....
to be able to disconnect from this world... a world God created, but ruined by humans....
HUMPH! story? that's me these days.... waiting for my dearest to come back to me is turning my desprate and gloomy...
live.. live for the ones you love.. for them only.. live your live...
shhh... he's sleeping....